Day 3

Waking up and remembering you are not here has so far been the hardest. I miss you more than words could ever say. My heart just aches to hold you. You are so loved, baby girl. I'm really trying to hang in there and last and the last few days have proven to be better if we have company and are with other people who loved you, too. I'm always thinking about the day I found you and wish so much I could have changed out future. I miss you soooooo much. I love you. I am so sad that our nightly routine is gone. I miss nursing you. I miss you fussing making me hurry to get ready for bed. I miss giving you a bath. I miss the smell of you after your bath. I miss you crying if I talked while I nursed you to sleep. I miss you so much. My heart is raw. I miss you waking me up at night. I miss our long, nightly nursing sessions. I want you back more than anything.