I'm having the hardest night. I don't feel like I can breathe I miss you so much. I find it so unfair. Why did you get taken? Why aren't you still here? Why aren't my two kids here? Why? Why? Why? My heart literally feels broken. Why do I only get pictures, videos, and memory necklaces to remember you? Why do I have to worry about forgetting you? Why can't you just be here? I don't get it. Why our family? I know God loves us. I know God is good. I just don't get it.
We went to the lake today. Auntie Elise's cabin. It was fun. But, as always, all I can think of is you. And what it would be like if you were there. Cash had swim. Nana and Meredith bought me necklaces to remember you. They are beautiful. Don't come close to you, but they are cute. You were far more beautiful and it makes me so sad people even have to buy me necklaces because you are gone.
I missed you all day. I thought of you every minute of today. I love you, Jovi. So much.