Saturday, September 27, 2014


Today I was thinking about you. And who you would be. 

I was thinking about the day I get to see you again. What an amazing day it will be. I wonder who you'll be then and how you'll look. 

I think of you, your sweet voice, your precious face, and the impact you've left on my heart so many times throughout my day. The tiniest things remind me of you. 

You are cherished. You are loved. 

You are missed every second of every day. 

 Come visit me soon?

I love you to Heaven and back, Jovi Sloan. 

I have died everyday waiting for you. 

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years. 

I'll love you for a thousand more. 
"A Thousand Years" Christena Perri

Friday, September 5, 2014

Cash E.

When did you get so big?!

You continue to make us laugh all day, every day. 

I could never tell you or explain to you his you kept me going in my darkest of days.

I'm so thankful you are our son. And that God gave me you. 

You are in kindergarten! You just finished your first week and seemed to love it. 

You make us proud. 

We are so thankful for you!


The amount of laughter, love and pure joy this girl brings our lives is unreal. 

Losing a baby makes you treasure and cherish everything. Even the very smallest of things. 

You, LJ, are full of life. 

We are so thankful for you. 

To My Younger Self

A friend posted on Facebook what we would write to ourselves now when we were younger. It really got me thinking. And made me realize how different my life has turned out. 

My biggest thing I would stress 'young' self is this- your life is going to turn out entirely different than you could ever imagine. Some really incredible, wonderful, amazing things will happen. Chapters of your life are going to be filled with joy, filled with laughter, filled with love, and filled full of wonder. But, with those good incredible chapters, your life will be filled with sadness, despair, tragic turns and events you won't see coming. You will fall. You will be knocked down. You will struggle and feel like you are drowning. 

But, you will always get up. You will keep smiling. After those really terrible chapters, light starts coming again. Laughter finds it's way back in. You will find joy and peace again. 

Despite the bad, you still will have a good life. You have been blessed. Very blessed. You will cherish and appreciate the smallest things. 

God is good. 

You need to own your life. You need to own it all- even the very bad chapters.