It's been far too long since I've kissed those sweet cheeks.
It's your 5 month birthday today. No mommy should have to wish their baby "Happy Birthday" in Heaven. I hope you are getting a celebration in Heaven. This birthday has been harder than last months. Maybe because you have been gone for an entire month birthday... we've missed your entire 4th-5th month. That is heartbreaking. Today has been very tough. I miss you so much and wish I didn't have to send my birthday wishes to Heaven.
We have been keeping busy around here. Going from playdate to playdate. Cash loves playing with friends and I love chatting with the mommies. I don't doubt you check in on us and make sure we are doing ok. We are hanging in there as best we can.
I read your ER note. It was so hard. Nothing stings like "There was no heartbeat ever". But, I'm your mommy so I had to read it. Sadly, it's a piece of you I have here.
Do you remember the last photo shoot I did of you? You looked so cute. I am so glad I took them. They are some of my favorite pictures.
Do you eat cake in Heaven? If so, I hope you get a big ole' piece. I miss you so much. I love you to Heaven and back.