Monday, March 4, 2013

The Perfect Gift.

My grandpa's service was Thursday. It wasn't too bad, actually. Until the end when he did the ship analogy which the pastor did at Jovi's service, too. I don't think any of us had dry eyes realizing Jovi was there... She was there as he walked into Heaven and she welcomed him! It brought it all home. It's been quite interesting that the last two weeks my devotionals have been all about Heaven. I loved it... I know Heaven is beautiful and so amazing. Way better than our minds can even comprehend... And Jovi is there. Experiencing Jesus first hand... It's incredible, really. Sometimes, I remind myself thinking she really is lucky. Lucky to be there. It's just so much harder to realize that when she didn't live a long life here on earth. It's just so hard to realize when she wasn't suffering. She was just here... alive. Smiling. Happy. Then, just gone. In an instant. But, she is blessed, really. She doesn't have to experience suffering or heartache or devestating news or tragic circumstances. Sometimes remembering her life is better there than it ever would have been here, does make it a little bit easier. Even though sometimes remembering that is quite hard seeing as I think she had a pretty good life with us while she was here.

Gpa's funeral brought lots of family from out of town. One of which my Aunt Becky. She's been working on the "Jovi Quilt". And the quilt has finally arrived. It's beautiful... in fact, words can't even describe how amazing it is. It's made of all her clothes, blankets, toys, etc. A sweet pair of shoes are sewed onto it... it was little pockets of her jeans... and in the pockets she sewed little like stuffed animals out of her clothes. It's priceless. I LOVE seeing it in our house. All of her stuff out on display. I, especially, love snuggling up with it and remembering every little outfit. She did such an amazing job. Even a little rattle from her little snuggle bear is sewn into the quilt. It's better than anything I could have imagined and means more to me than I could ever say. I find myself just staring... and touching it. It's another piece of her we get to enjoy here and another piece that shows she lived.

Jovi girl- I miss you more than I could say. I wish I was stressing over cake pops and tutu's for your upcoming birthday party. I wish you were here to meet all the family members (especially those who never got to snuggle you). I just miss you. Life will never be complete until we are all together again. What are you doing right now? How I'd love to just get a glimpse of you these days... I know you'd be a big girl and so cute. I love you, sunshine. to Heaven and back.

The Jovi quilt- a picture doesn't do it justice
Ship analogy that showed up in my book after the pastor said it at Jovi's funeral.

"Then I saw "a new heaven and a new earth," fo rthe first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, preapared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice fromt he throne saying, "Look! God's dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself wil be with them and be their God. 'He will whipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death' or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." Revelation 21:1-4


  1. Molly, I am a faithful reader of your blog and enjoy it. The ship analogy is very touching. Where could I
    get a copy of it?
    Carolyn Cox

  2. Carolyn- Thank you for continuing to follow my blog. I really do appreciate it. I found the ship analogy below at - Hope that helps. I really do like it as well.

    Gone From My Sight
    by Henry Van Dyke

    I am standing upon the seashore. A ship, at my side,
    spreads her white sails to the moving breeze and starts
    for the blue ocean. She is an object of beauty and strength.
    I stand and watch her until, at length, she hangs like a speck
    of white cloud just where the sea and sky come to mingle with each other.

    Then, someone at my side says, "There, she is gone"

    Gone where?

    Gone from my sight. That is all. She is just as large in mast,
    hull and spar as she was when she left my side.
    And, she is just as able to bear her load of living freight to her destined port.

    Her diminished size is in me -- not in her.
    And, just at the moment when someone says, "There, she is gone,"
    there are other eyes watching her coming, and other voices
    ready to take up the glad shout, "Here she comes!"

    And that is dying...

  3. This quilt is just more than beautiful. It has so much meaning that comes along with is just priceless. I am so glad that your Aunt was able to make that for you guys to cherish. You are so inspiring with your faith. It's amazing how strong you feel God in your life when you experience a child loss. I don't know how I would ever make it through this without God (and people like you).

    I wish you were stressing about tutus and cake pops too :( I am so sorry. I have been thinking of you so often as you get closer to Jovi's first birthday. Are you guys going to have any kind of memorial on her birthday? I know Marc and I talked about a memorial birthday party....I still want to do tutus and cake's just so hard because you want to have them here to celebrate one of the biggest birthdays. :( I am so sorry. Thinking and praying for you often. <3