Jovi's birthday was a huge success.
I'm still speechless. I'm still in awe of the amount of people who participated in honoring her and her life. I haven't blogged because I don't have any words to explain the day. It was amazing. It was wonderful. It was filled with celebrating her life. Jovi love was spread all over the world. Parts of the entire world were able to experience some of the good Jovi has brought my life. It was incredible. Over a thousand people committed to doing something kind for someone else in honor of her. I was even interviewed for the news... I'm telling you... Amazing!
I still wished she was here. I still wished she was blowing out candles on her birthday cake. I wish I could hear her shriek for delight when seeing her presents. I wish I could see her eyes light up when she sees her cake. I wish I could see her sweet little expression while we sing her birthday song. I wish I could see her smothered in frosting. Oh how I wish.... Oh... Oh how I wish.
But, this year, I realized that those wishes won't bring her back. No matter how hard I try, it won't happen. A depressing realization, but, healthy all at the same time.
Two years ago, she was here; she was full of life. How my life has changed...
Jovi Sloan- I have no doubt that you were watching your big day. I have no doubt that somehow you had a hand it in. Like how people found heart-shaped items or how Auntie Erika's donation thank you card said "I love you right to the moon and back". You have made an impact. You've changed lives. You've inspired. I'm so proud of you, baby. I can't wait to tell you in person. I am so proud of you and proud to call you my baby. You've done so much in your short life.
You inspire me. You make me better. I hope to inspire as many people as you have. Thank you for being so awesome. Thank you for being my baby.
I know you were smiling watching the day unfold. I can see you sitting on Jesus's lap... Looking down... And you both smiling, watching the good you've created in the world. You, my little lady, have made the world a better place.
I love you, Jovi girl, to Heaven and back.